Laila's birthday

Okayyy 18hb October and it's laila's birthday . So we've decided to make a suprise for her . So as a ketua tutoran aku terpaksa laa jadi ketua segala plan . Saja nak mengenakan aku la tu . So here's the plan . Aku ajak semua classmate perempuan jogging petang tuu . Yang classmate lelaki prepare dekat astaka . So semua setuju . I kata i nak pi bagi makan ikan dekat tasik sebab afiq suruh. Laila thought that i suka afiq . So lagi bagus laa kalau macam tuu hahahaha . Suddenly laila was not feeling well. Dia muntah . Damnnnn cancel keee ????! Nope . Dia okay lepas tu . Kitaorang pun jalan pergi tasik . Lepas bagi makan ikan semua . I cakap i nak pergi jumpa afiq . Nak main tennis dengan afiq . Hahahahahaha yang si laila ni pun mati mati ingat i suka afiq gila gila . Sokayy laa laila asalkan plan berjaya . Then jalan la pergi court tennis . Sekali nahhhh ! Happy birthday lailaaaaa .. So sweet la classmate m2p2 . Semua bagi kerjasama . Laila cried you knowww . Hahahahaa . Then apa lagi, main tepung telur laaa . But the thing is, i dengan laila tak tahan bau telur . Laila muntah sebab busuk sangat . Yang i pun apa lagi kena sikit pun nak termuntah gilaaa . Serious busukkkk . Basuh baju 2 3 kali pun tak hilang kot . Hahahaha tapi apa salahnya . Memori kan.  Sweet memory in matrikulasi perlis ni :) so mission complete  yeayyyy . Laila dah kena prank wuhuuu . That's all .

Damn I'm tired trying . Macam macam dah cuba tapi hasilnya still zero . Rasa macam nak giveup seriously . Nak kata dia suka, macam tak . Nak kata dia tak suka pun, tak sure lah . Sometimes he gave me hope like hell . Rasa nak move on . Rasa macam taknak jumpa langsung . Rasa macam nak pindah je weh . Tak boleh jugak kan kalau aku sorang je yang syok sendiri . But he's too caring . Wehhh jangan la buat aku macam ni 😭 stresssss... Tak tidur malam asyik fikir pasal hang. Tapi confirm laa dia suka orang lain kan . I think so . Memang pun . Whatever

For a long time I ignored you my dear blog . I'm too busy with my life. Yeah sekarang dah dekat matrikulasi . So tau tau je lah life dekat sini macam mana . Lifeless. But sometimes seronok jugak sebab merasa nak travel negeri orang perthlis. For the first time my mom jauh . Homesick gila namati weh. Seminggu jugak mata bengkak. But makin okay . Proud of myself. Hmmm many things happened here. But there's one thing that i wanna share . Yaa maybe boleh rasa lega lepasni. There's a guy . First time jumpa masa tiket habis nak balik teluk intan. Hanya disebabkan tiket. Then we decided nak balik sama sama . Sampai manjung pukul 3 pagi hengkoo rasaaaa... redha je la. Tinggal lah aku berdua dengan this guy. Know each other. Tiba tiba dia tanya nak air tak . Aku dah mula rasa lain. But abaikan je masa tu. Then of course la jumpa selalu dekat matrik . I'm still okay. But now i'm not okay. Seriously. Entah bila rasa lain macam tu rasa lagi lain macam . Every day rasa nak jumpa every day rasa nak tgk. Aku dah kenapa wehh . so abaikan lagi. Tapi tiap kali jumpaa.. dupdapdupdap. Sakai. That moment masa jamuan raya memang tak boleh lupa. I talk to ikin "wehh entah kenapa teringin nak tangkap gambar dengan dia" . Suddenly masa tengah jalan dia ajak tangkap gambar. Ya Allah nak jerit nak lompat semua ada lah. Syok sendiri aku. Okay dah makin parah dah. And semalam . Lagi tak boleh lupa. He said "kafe a, 8.45" and i was like wehhhh serious dia ajak aku jumpa?? Hahahahahhahaa . Emm nak kata dating tu tak jugak . Meeting la kot kahkah. He talked about himself. I talked about myself. Yaaa semua orang pandang pelik. Haha baik pulak si katak ni belanja air and ice cream . Ingatkan dia banyak cakap . Takda  laa banyak sangat. Aku lagi banyak mulut rasanya . Tapi yang pasti dia suka bahan aku -,- Every moment rasa macam mimpi. I'm happy. Too happy. Fall in love kah? Yee wehhh yeee. 24hrs i'm thinking bout you. Everyday i wanna see you . You asked me whether i'm jealous when you are with another girl . Yessss wehhhh sangat. Buta ke ? You are such a nice guy to me. Kau pelik. Kau cerewet. Kau pendiam . Kau sombong . That's why i think you are so unique . Since 2 months ago aku rasa macam "aku ni dah kenapa ingat pasal dia" "asal rasa macam ni" "kenapa dia ?" "aku suka dia ke?" Well i didn't find any answer for that! But aku tak rasa aku patut anggap lebih kalau dah dia anggap aku kawan. Takkan perigi cari timba pulak kan . Mustahil la nakk. I try to forget bout this. I can't. Every day ada je benda jadi. Macam mana nak move on wehh. Try berpijak di bumi yang nyata. Hahahahaa dia tak pandang aku sikit pun wehh. Sedar la. Wake up.